I couldn't tell my manager that I couldn't do the job

- Submitted by Anonymous


October 2022

Jessica Bensch
Jessica Bensch

I was very new to the team, a complete junior. I had to learn everything from scratch. I took a training course meant to be directly
related to the job - but later learned that the training did not offer at all what I needed to effectively carry out my responsibilities.

On the job, it was a very different experience. I looked at my experienced colleagues naively believing that they would show me
the way if I was doing anything out of turn. But I was wrong. There was no advice given, no suggestions made.

Targets were assigned to all of us - quite unrealistic ones. I tried to follow what I learned on the training, but it was not what the others were doing. They were cutting corners in every direction.

I couldn't tell my manager that I couldn't do the job. Equally could I really state the reality of how others were operating?

I ended up raising my concerns but the lead was not interested - I eventually found a middle ground (between performing my duties
with integrity and somewhat meeting the targets).

I hate having to do that - but I'm not convinced that honesty was
encouraged in that group.